Examtime

It's now going to be exam-week this week, from 2nd September to 6th September. So like always, this blog is going to be abadoned for this week. Maybe next week as well plus a couple weeks since my mom is coming to Brunei next week wednesday night.

Yeah, the blog will be temporarily inactive for this week and maybe for the following weeks depending on the situation.

And Good Luck to Everyone!

Exam Schedule:

2nd September: None

3rd September: Chem

4th September: Psych

5th September: None

6th September: english and then Phil gov and consti.

Zoology will be TBA and extra class might fall on a friday (hopefully not) or saturday lunch after my exam. Pilipino was postponed last week and moved to next week Friday morning.

small update: I didn't go to the cafe yesterday. Decided to take care of my grandmother. And she didnt went as well...why? Yesterday was blazing HOT!

Anyways...

Good Luck To Everyone who might be going into their midterms!

Sick and Exams

First of all I'm sick.

With a cold. So as I type this post, mucus is dripping down my nose and onto my lips with an awful disgusting taste. Yeash, that sick...I need to eat something hot to balance my hot and cold. So I ate chicken curry with extra pepper, my version of kimchi (veggies with chili sauce) and some spicy korean instant noodles hmmhmm. yum.

Next week I might not blog due to the exams going on.

Excited?

No, because midterms is going to be H***!

Zoology, Chemistry, English are the toughies while phil consti and psychology will be worthy easy goers to help me relief some stress.

My Filipino exam is this Friday morning, it's called the Special Tutorial exam. It's for me and my KF only, yes we're very special foreign students indeed. In which this Thrusday morning we'll be studying together while I help her understand through translating what I know of.

My haircut is like the haircut I had when I took my driving exam last November/December.

Currently I have a quiz tomorrow, english 2 longie. And I hate english grammer....ESPECIALLY AMERICANIZED!! Oh dear gosh.

I really hate doing english grammer again...it's like going to primary or secondary again...like a kid or a teen T.T

Something on my feelings lately:

I miss you,

I really do,

I miss you being next to me,

I miss you being there,

I miss seeing you physically,

I miss talking to you,

It feels empty,

It feel like I'm worthy to live on without you,

I love you, do you know that?

I'm worried about you, do you know that?

I care for you, do you know that?

I'm concern about you, do you know that?

I don't want you to leave me,

Among my darkness,

It's lonely,

You are my light and joy,

You lead me out of my darkness,

I thank god,

I met you,

I'm the happiest man in the world to have met a friend like you,

But the question is,

Would you abadon me?

Would you betray me?

Would you even care?

Tell me,

The answers and I will be glady listen.

Why?

I love you. I miss you. My friend.

Note: No this not a love poem to my KF. And I'm not in love too. It's just something I had to write.

Drunk

*hic*

I'm drunk..

*hic*

From..

*hic*

Being online for too long

*hic*...

So many typo mistakes...

*hic*

Bleh

Questions Questions

Okay, these questions are from LW's blog. I'm bored anyways. So after these questions I will update you with what's happened lately and so on.

About me

Birthday:: In the middle of June, the year the berlin wall was torn down =)
Birthplace:: Brunei
Eye Color:: Black
Hair Color:: Black
Height:: 175cm
Weight:: Heavy weight...though losing it slowly through crash diet now
Right handed or Left handed?: Right
Your Heritage:: Chinese and Filipino
My Worst Habit:: Tend to spend too much time on one thing and forget what to do next. Eg: Staying infront of this laptop for long hours and forget that I have chores
Zodiac Sign:: Gemini
Shoe Size:: UK size 9 US size 10
Pants Size:: 40 to 41 inches
Innie or Outie?: Both, I like going out and as well spending my time at home. And I cannot wait to drive soon!
Parents Still Together?: Yes
The Shoes You Wore Today:: Black leather hush puppies shoes that looks like sneakers.
Your Fears:: Abandonment, Loneliness and Being left behind and fear of letting my anger out
Your Perfect Pizza:: Veggie and EXTREMELY CHEESEY
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:: Get a girlfriend? Nope LOL hmm Pass my First and Second Semester and help my new found friends when I can, as well to try to bond a good friendship with them and hoping to last for a very long time.
Thoughts First Waking Up:: 'Why the heck did I wake up at 2:30 in the morning?"
Your Best Physical Feature:: I don't know...maybe...my chinese looking eyes haha I don't know really know
Your Bedtime:: between 9pm and 12pm, dependinn of the day.
Your Most Missed Memory:: I got alot of memories I miss. So basically everything that I missed

MY FAVORITES
Favorite color?: Red, Blue, Yellow and Black
Food?: Japanese, Chinese, Korean, Pizzas, pastas and lazangnas
Sport?: Football, Martial Arts, Golf and basketball
Animal?: depends. A peaceful one would be a fish, and loyalty would be dogs
Ice Cream?: Cookies and Cream
Candy?: At the moment, chewing gums, doublemint
Store?: Any store that sells CDS, books and Anime collectables =)
Salad Dressing?: any would do...they're mostly the same
Actor?: Adam Sandler, Jim Carey, Georgle Clooney and Al Pacino
Song?: Jazz, Ballads, some pop, rock and instrumentals
Number?: 8
Gum?: ummm that's with the candy I think?
Holiday?: Christmass or maybe the long two to three month summer holiday which is soon.
Season?: Summer...BUT I do want to experience Autumn and Winter!
Toothpaste Flavor?: Errr they're just toothpaste..
Radio Station?: None, I got no favorite radio stations....my own music is my radio
Perfume?: I hate perfumes and collonge (spelling?). I really hate it
Scent besides perfume?: The scent of nature is perfect for me....not the waste of course
Body part on the opposite sex?: legs?

FRIENDS AND LIFE
What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up?: A doctor/Psychologist, I'm pursuing a course in psychology then maybe continue to med...extra years T.T
Which One Of Your Friends Acts The Most Like You?: I don't think I have friends that acts like me.
Who’s The Loudest?: No-one, we're a quiet group.
Who Makes You Laugh The Most?: All three of them. Now in uni, three to four friends makes me laugh
Who Have You Known The Longest?: Alvin Lee and Hamizan
Who’s The Shyest?: I think I'm the shyest =) haha no-one...but if there is now, it would be my KF.
When Have You Cried The Most?: Whenever I feel like crying, I hold it (sometimes tears would come out because I feel emotional at times) but the last time I have cried the most is at June 15 Graduation 2007, I sat alone and cried.
What Is The Best Feeling In The World?: To know that someone actually needs me, To know that I am actually doing something for someone because I care, To thank god that I'm alive and have a handful friend I love and care about.
Worst Feeling?: Someone who does not repay my care and love.
Where Do You Want To Live When You Grow Up?: Was England or USA, but now it's Japan/Korea/Singapore/Brunei/Philippines.
If You Could Change One Thing About You What Would It Be?: Less of a fool in trying to hide my emotions and feelings, hence it's obvious in my body language. And as well try to keep in touch with people but hoping that they won't abadon me...

FINISH EACH SENTENCE
Let’s walk on the: road that leads to our home
Let’s look at the: sky and the beautiful scenery, why? It's so beautiful that you cannot believe how nature works.
What a nice: smile, you made my day alittle brighter.
Where did all the: good old days go?
Why can’t we: be together abit more longer?
Silly, little: person
Everyone has a: secret that is dear to him/her
I am: someone who would be there if you need me, and be there if you are down. Why? I care you know.

HAVE YOU EVER
Been In Love?: I cannot comment on that...I'm not in love right now
Been Rejected?: In crushes and so forth, yes, other things, yes.
Ran Away From Home?: I have thought about it once. But I just can't leave home...I feel empty if I don't have a home
Pictured Your Crush Naked?: No
Skipped School?: Nope, and will never do.
Thought About Suicide?: in times when I'm in deep dperession..maybe but no
Slept Outside?: Nope, only with relatives' place.
Laughed So Hard You Cried?: Always.
Cried In School?: I think have...twice or trice..I Dunno
Thrown Up In School?: Nope...but I have DONE ONE EMBARSSING THING!
Wanted To Be a Model?: *bleep* no
Cheated On Someone?: Who in the right mind would cheat on someone
Done Something Really Stupid That You Still Laugh At Today?: Yeash
Seen A Dead Body?: Yeash
Been Bitched Out?: what?
Drank Alcohol?: Red-wine, champagne, vodka and beer...small sips but I don't drink ever since that hangover.
Smoked?: nope...unless you want to end up like my dad in the year 2001 or 1999?
Been On Drugs?: Medicinial drugs that helps with my flu, fever, colds and coughs.
Eaten Sushi?: Always...now I miss them so much
Been On Stage?: Quite alot of times...
Shoplifted?: Accidentally...and wasn't caught..
Been Drunk?: If I drink a fizzy drink now, I get drunk. and i have been drunk once or twice..
Been Beaten Up?: Me, strong boy, me never get beaten up. haha. Well does sparring counts?

DO YOU
Swear?: I do sometimes...Only when frustrated
Sing Well?: Ballad, Vocals and Jazz....I've been told I got a golden voice -_-" odd.
Shower Daily?: Obviously
Want To Go To College?: In college, and heck I'm lovin' the workload
Want To Get Married?: Not now, in the next 5 to 7 years then maybe if I find my soulmate.
Believe In Yourself?: Yes but when it gets grim then no.
Get Motion Sickness?: at times.
Think You Are Attractive?: I hope and I don't know...
Get Along With Your Parents?: Yeash. . . .
Like Thunderstorms?: Sweet roaring thunders....only annoying if they hit the electricity plant and causes a blackout.
Play An Instrument?: used to play the piano...now no
Own An IPOD?: IPOD shuffle and sony walkman
Pray?: Yes
Sleep With Stuffed Animals?: Nope
Keep A Journal/Diary?: a journal that I write on yes.
Dance In The Rain?: I walk, not dance.
Sing In The Shower?: Always...as same as talking to myself in the shower when I'm thinking.

THIS OR THAT
Pepsi or Coke?: Neither
McDonald’s or Burger King?: Neither
Single or Group Dates?: Single
Chocolate or Vanilla?: Both
Strawberries or Blueberries?: Strawberries.
Meat or Veggies?: Veggies more.
TV or Movie?: Depends really.
Guitar or Drums?: Both?
Adidas or Nike?: Adidas for footy, Nike for bags and basketball
Chinese or Mexican?: Chinese
Cheerios or Corn Flakes?: Neither
Cake or Pie?: Both
MTV or VH1?: Only if they're showing music not those stupid shows
Blind or Deaf?: Neither

CAN YOU
Do The Splits?: nearly split...
Write With Both Hands?: I can but lefty not so perfect.
Whistle?: Yeash
Blow A Bubble?: Yeash
Roll Your Tongue In A Circle?: Yeash
Cross Your Eyes?: Yeash
Walk With Your Toes Curled?: Tried it...it hurts
Touch Your Tongue to Your Nose?: almost.
Dance?: ballroom or the waltz
Eat Whatever You Want And Not Worry?: depends really.

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON
You Touched:: one of my classmates...
You Talked To On The Phone:: Cousin
You Instant Messaged:: Lin Ji last night...and Mom too
You Hugged:: Grandma
You Yelled At:: when I was arguing with someone
You Played A Sport With:: cousin.

WHAT’S THE LAST
Time You Laughed?: Just now in the morning and now while watching football funny goals
Time You Cried?: last night while listening to sad songs..
Movie You Watched?: The Terminal
Flavor Of Gum You Chewed?: Doublemint
Joke You Told?: I do tell jokes but I don't recall any
Song You’ve Sung?: in the morning infront of my KF and tutor (because our Pil tuor asked me to sing again), More Than Word by the Extreme. Recently are two korean songs that was given to me.

RIGHT AT THIS MOMENT
Where Are You?: In the living room, number two, near the study room
What Can You See Out Your Window?: the car and some houses..
Are You Listening To Music?: Yes, always
What Are You Wearing?: sleeveless tshirt and shorts and flip-flops
What’s On Your Mousepad?: I use a laptop

BELIEFS
Do you believe there is life on other planets?: maybe but too many conspiracies and media is too dramatic to be trusted at times.
Do you believe in miracles?: Yes
Magic?: they're not true
Love at first sight?: maybe.
Ghosts?: Hmm
Santa?: I'm fat, does that count?
Evolution?: hmm that would depend on how well the monkey does in my test.

IN A GIRL
Fav Eye Color:: Black
Fav Hair Color:: Black
Short or Long Hair:: Long Hair...
Height:: about my shoulder or my height.
Weight:: it would depend though..
Best Clothing Style:: Casual is always best, not too exposed...if you get what I mean.

IN A GUY (I will leave this blank...)
Fav Eye Color::
Fav Hair Color::
Short or Long Hair::
Height::
Weight::
Best Clothing Style::

RANDOM
What Country Would You Most Like To Visit?: Liverpool, England. Tokyo, Japan. Seoul, South Korea. Beijing, China. Singapore.
Number Of CD’s I Own:: I do have lots of CDS but now I use torrent
How many pillows do you sleep with?: two pillows
Do you drink milk?: Yes
Person You Hate Most:: People spreading false information.
How many rings until you answer the phone?: As soon as possible.
What is something scientists need to invent?: When will you stop?
Are you a health freak?: now...I'm just dieting.
If you could travel into space, where would you go?: Earth is home.
What is the worst weather?: Any will do...exclude typoons and disasterous weathers.
Did you play with Barbies as a child?: I'm a straight guy...and heck no.
How many grades have you failed?: one or two in my past.

Updates:
Today, I woke up 2:30am automatically.

Weird yes.

But heck, I did sleep again but woke up again.

And yea today was quite close of being bad.

Tutorial/Class,

I sang again. Upon the request of our tutor.

"Yes, I know that song" she said.

I sang a ballad. So yea. Because we're talking about our Listening is important in communication...In tagalog...I'm the trranslator.

Then Chem, was hell. We did chemical formulas quiz. I barely pass it.

Then while fixing my classmate/friend's laptop.

My gay classmate wrote "[my name] loves [her/KF name]" on the greenboard/blackboard...it's green by the way.

annoyed. I rubbed the writing with a smile.

Then moving on with chem, I got extra 10 points. Because I got the answer right for the problem!

So now. I'm now entering a 3 day holiday with only one assignment (english) and no research papers to do but I have to help my KF with hers and as well revise with her for our exam next friday morning.

I'm literally FREE. But I have quizes coming at me!

Joy.

Anyways, I go.

I'm nearly recovered from my depression. Abit more then I'm back up again.

Would you care?

Would you care if I disappear?

Would you care if I die?

Would you even care if I get killed for protecting you?

Would you care if I die due to my hidden emotions?

Would you care about how I feel deep inside my heart?

Would you even care about me?

Would you care is the question,

So,

Would you care if I'm gone and not existent in your life?

I don't know,

I'm asking you.

If you would even care.

As I look out the window

Everyday, In the car I would stare blankly through the windows,

The images won't embed in my mind,

But my thoughts would be running through,

Thoughts about friends, family and so on,

Thoughts that maybe depressive,

Thoughts that might bring me down,

My thoughts,

Why?

I don't know,

Am I recovering from my drop to depression?

Slowly

But I'm getting there.

Depressed am I?

Yes, obviously.

I hide all my emotions,

I fake my happiness,

I show you my not true emotions,

Why?

I'm protecting people to not affected by depressive state,

I rather suffer on my own then to allow others to join in,

Why?

I want people to be happy,

Not to suffer.

Update:
Exams after next week, midterms.

My Anger

When I get angry,

My body automatically holds it,

I may look calm in the outside with a fake smile,

But,

Inside my heart beats rapidly,

I would be shaking in anger,

I would be feeling pain in my heart,

Anger screaming to burst,

I hold it,

I hold it,

I then burst into tears slowly,

I'm still holding it.

It's my treaty upon myself,

Never to be angry,

And Hold my anger.

Until this day,

I'm shaking in anger when I'm angry,

And I would be holding it.

Update:

Just learned on thursday last week, I asked my Psychology Prof whether holding anger is bad. She said it is. In which, holding one's anger is bad as it's risk to heart disease. I think or got a feeling that my compulsive shaking and anger feelings being held in is risking me to heart disease....which is now I'm scared of. I still have pain in my heart whenever I'm angry and I begin to shake, this happens whenever I hold it.

My prof's advice? relesae all the anger I have within me...I told myself "Are you serious? I've been holding my anger for so long and now I have to relsease it? How am I suppose to do that?" My Prof said to punch something many times I want or find a ways to release it...I decided to hold it for now until one day, I can release my anger.

Been told that I don't deserve to suffer nor be in pain. (I'm not going to say who said that but it was someone I was chatting to the other day...and no it's not my KF)

I finished all my research papers...I can breathe easily now.

Anyways, I recovering from my depression...slowly of course.

Lonely

I feel lonely,

In my heart I feel lost,

My mind is wandering,

It's lonely,

Don't leave me,

I feel empty.

Update:
No uni today [18/08/08] and next monday [25/08/08], why? Public Holiday.

Pain

Pain in my heart,

Filled with anger,

Filled with sorrow,

Filled with loneliness,

It hurts,

I need you by my side,

I feel,

Pain...

I'm shaking in pain,

My heart beats rapidly,

I'm in pain...

Update:

Still in depress state, needs a couple more weeks or days to recover. Some are already concern...and tried to cheer me up...but still I'm in this state of depression, need to recover and get back again.

Starbucks coffee in the bottle is gone! no more! GONE! I resulted with buying coffee in can instead...Yes I know coffee is bad but this for school only, to wake me up.

I joined the choir, but currently my school schedule is running onto the practice schedule...And I don't mind if I get eliminated due to absences, I got vocal lessons soon anyways, I can focus on my solo career in singing. Maybe sing some english, chinese, korean and japanese songs, and attempt to promote it in asia. Yes I'm overly dreaming.

I finished my major subject research paper, which is psychology. I now can breathe easy abit now. So far:

- English 2 report paper done
- Psychology research paper done
- Soc 3, phil gov and consti paper nearly done
- Chem paper - TBA
- Zoolo paper - TBA

So yea I can breathe at ease.

Cheerio, hope i recover soon.

Priorities

1) Education, I must finish my psychology course
2) Helping, I must help my friends who needs help
3) Family, I must be there at least...
4) Friends, I care, concern, support, help and understand. However I feel like some are just acquitances or some seem to have abandoned me...
5) My search, search to find the pieces of me again
6) My interests and hobbies, they help me keep my mind off things I don't want to think about
7) My emotions, to show or not to show. My anger that is held in for a long time will lead to heart disease, I must release it. I hide my sorrowness from others so they won't get affected by me...but my body language says something else.
8) My thoughts, thinking alot lately...it bothers me
9) Me, I...I'm lone and one...I'm back to where I was before
10) You, my friends I love you but...have you abandoned me? Have you left me in the cold?

Slept Early

To those who are wondering why I was not online after 7pm, it's because I was forced or persuded to sleep early around 7pm. I know it's weird to sleep that early.

I hate sleeping that early.

I mean seriously, whoever sleeps that early like between 7pm and 6pm has to be the most saddest person in the world.

Anyways, I faked my sleep and watched my videos on my laptop and text around with people so I can at least waste some time. And as well listened to some music too.

So yea..that's an update for now..

Thinking

I think too much lately...

Thoughts that I would ponder and wonder about..

When I think, I won't greet you in a way you wouldn't like,

When I think, you can tell that I'm in a sorrowful state,

When I think of the words that I've been described,

Nice, Kind, Friendly, Witty, Funny, Workaholic, helpful, giving, generous and lonely,

I wonder myself, does those words truely describe me?

When I thought about it for awhile,

I lost my true well-being,

I lost my inspiration,

I lost my morale,

It's like,

I have to rediscover myself once again like before,

To find my true self and meaning.

I just don't know...

Everything's gone...

Everything's lost...

Everything...

Just let me be...

My friends, those who understand how I felt, I thank you, because you're my true friends in life. And I am glad I met you. Thank you.

[Song playing: One Winged Angel(all versions)]

How...

Psychoanalysis and Sigmund Freud ruined my life

I finally found out why I'm in such a bad mood or in such deeply bad morale rate. Yeash sure I joke around abit to cheer up some people and even help people in my own right....even getting my hair pulled in certain cases.
BUT I can tell you that psychoanalysis has now ruined my life for now this semester, my findings and understanding so far about dream psychology. I'm in awful because of this findings...likewise, the Chapter 5: Sex In Dreams. I tried to skip the chapter but my research curiousity senses told me to read it...in which I did and in shock and disillusion by the text...that our dreams are related to sex...and as well the desire of...well...sex too...and as well it changed my look at love as well...not in a sexual means of desire context but that we have different desires in life and wishes we really want to fulfil...likewise dreams are made of those, desires and wishes. But in form of symbols which we have to try to understand and formulate the most probable meaning.

Lately, while reading psychoanalysis. I've been having more dreams than I used to have! I mean seriously! More and more and I wake up too early..where upon waking up I tried to self-analysis (just like freud) to analyze my dreams, I always come up different meanings of my dreams...and it's driving me mad!

Could this be diaster to a psychologist student?

That his insanity over these dreams have driven him mad?

Because right now, this person typing this post is really losing it. Being in a state of shock and lack of sleep and surprising understanding of this analysis so far. I still will pursue this as my research paper in my own understanding but I would be still in awe in what I've found out recently after reading chapter 5 just now in university while waiting for my next subject.

Daydreams by the way are only your wishes that you are hoping to come true

The first possible student to have driven mad over his research

Lack of Sleep

I lack of sleep, I slept 10:30...then I dreamed something personal...like really personal and weird...it's like the dream I had before about soulmates [Dreamt of finding the one, touched hands then we parted on our separate routes and promised to see each other again (she looked asian by the way)] but this was different from my dream last two years ago about soulmates. This time instead of touching and holding hands, it was dancing together under the moon through the darkness gailantly and wonderful smooth waltz...as the darkness ends we embraced for short while and promised we'll see each other again (face is blurry but I know she's asian), then we parted again and promised again. Yea that personal and weird...how weird? I couldn't interact with the other people who were leaving...as if they're ignoring me..so yea...then I wake up 3:00am to discover I have an sms from [censored]...asking about zoology...so yea.

I lack sleep lately, I get sleep yes, but I've been working tirelessly to complete my several research papers...I already cleared my desk from english. So yeash. One nearly done, one going to start soon as soon I understand psychoanalysis more indepth.

My previous two posts, one was me asking questions because I've pondering lately...the other is dedication to dead frogs worldwide. And I had a haircut by the way....People praising my haircut because I look 'neat and clean'...I say 'I prefer my long hair, I still prefer it over short' And I told myself when I comeback to brunei, I'll get a proper haircut...the haircut I got is amateurish and he didn't get the style I wanted.

I'm not in a good mood lately. My morale seems down...I don't know why...could it be that I've realized my through desire of my dreams...where I've been seeking for someone to accompany me...But I don't think that would be fulfilling at the moment...I don't really know....

I just don't know myself anymore....I lost my true sense of knowing myself

Who am I now? Who am I to them? Who am I to my friends? Who am I to you? Who am I to myself?

I don't know

Is It...

Is it bad for a man to be extremely caring and concern?
Is it bad for a man to be concern over his friends?
Is it bad for a man to be caring over his friends?
Is it bad for a man to be protective over his friends?
Is it bad for a man to be supportive for his friends?

Is it right for a man to be overly helpful for people?
Is it right for a man to be too giving?
Is it right for a man to be way too kind?
Is it right for a man to be holding his emotions?
Is it right for a man to be the way he is?

Is it wrong for a man to be criticized for something he's doing that is right?
Is it wrong for a man to be emotionally sensitive?
Is it wrong for a man to be depressed?
Is it wrong for a man to be downed by people who thought wrongly about him?
Is it wrong for a man to be betrayed by his good-willing nature?

Why am I depressed?
Am I supposed to be happy the way everything's going on in my life?
Why am I so sensitive?
Am I suppose to let everything be and just let life go on?
Why am I so emotional?
Am I suppose to be the way am I the way I will be?
Why am I too helpful?
Am I suppose help everyone I see who needs help?
Why am I so concerned?
Am I suppose to be concern about everyone I know?

Why is the question,
Why is the main reason,
Why is the insight of everything,
Why is the leading question,
Why does everything happen to me?

I ask myself why,
All the questions in the world,
Why?
I ask myself why,
I do these thing?

Is it my nature?
Is it my instinct?
Is it my inner personality
Is it the way I was brought up?
Is it because I am who I am, and I know who knows me best?

Dear Frog

Dear frog,

I don't know what to say, but I nearly puked my lunch out of my stomach. I coughed madly over your dead formulin smell body. It is a cruel world that you must die for us zoology students...I shall dedicate this post to the dead frogs out there, where they'll be either next in line or to be used in experiments for university students worldwide...to Frogger, we'll miss you always...





Poor frogger, we'll miss you...

Yes we'll be disecting frogs soon, and he'll be one of the many frogs to be disected next week...

I nearly puked because I'm extremely sensitive if I see a poor reptile to be used as an experiment by us students...I coughed like a madman, every female classmate were in awe...But I took up the courage to take pictures of the dead frog and I inhaled the most formulin than anyone in the class...so I was coughing and coughing and I felt my stomach eased and about to vomit but I held it but still coughing. So yea that what wanted today, to discover and meet our lil'friends to be disected.

weeeeeeeeeeeeee

Pity the frogs....

Langauge Barrier

My dear readers, you know how I'm a very concerned person and caring as well. Well, I'm going to talk about my concern about my korean friend lately ever since I arrived in university. And I've been thinking about what to do, what to do...I'll explain it.

You know what's a language barrier? I know some of you do right? But to those who doesn't, it's a invisible wall where one is unknown to the language being spoken.

So put yourself in a position of my dear Korean friend. In university, sitting there quietly with her group friends (non-koreans and filipinas), however these "friends" and our classmates are talking behind her back.
[Now you know why I don't want to date a filipina]
I know right? And it's in tagalog so she (or you if you're imaging yourself in that position) couldn't understand a word what they're saying. I don't even know if they have ever heard the language barrier. (Note:This happened numerous times, I've been hiding this emotion of angiush about their betrayal...only now I'm expressing this in this blog) I understand what they're saying but I don't know whether I should tell her of what they're saying or not. And I'm taking this as an insult because I'm her friend and I care!
I'm her friend yes, but I'm also considering the consequences of what may happen. Like I'll be in their bad side of every single soul of my classmates and our classmates won't dare to talk to us again....broken friendships and such....I just don't know....I've been thinking about this all night and I felt yesterday at chemistry was the last straw but I held it in.

I need some advice guys....I really need some advice on what I should do here.
I've already asked mmy mom what she thinks. She said "Let it be, you don't want any trouble"
But I answered my mom [this in msn btw] "Ma, I inherited your goodwilling care and concern. I'm only here in philippines to study and to find friends who are true. I'm just very concern about her...you know already, we're the only foreigners in the university."
Mom's answer "I know you very well son, you just be careful what you do and choose your true friends. And let others be your acquitances."

T_T

I need advice my dear friends...Should I speak to our tutorial fil teacher? or Speak to the guidance counselor? or the Dean? or our profs? or tell her everything? I just don't know....or should give everyone a warning? That would be a scarifice of my dear buttex for my friend...

My friends you know my law of friendship right? I would care, concern and protect you. And I'll support you and help you as much as I can. And I'll be there when you need me. Because I value my friendship for you.

I officially hate language barriers

"I Value friendship very much as the same to my value of my family" - Merlyn of Fools Die By Mario Puzo