Rain

Rain Rain,

oh how i love you when you're pouring down from the heavens.

You're like a true blessings from above.

A gift of love and life!

Rain please come on pouring down on me!

For I am happy and joyful or for I am meek and sorrowful at times!

Let me remind of the days when it was jolly green days in brunei,

before she chose someone over me,

those happiest moments of my life.

Yet the rain, I love you more and more.

You bring tears upon my eyes.

Because of those rainy days I love and miss.

You're a blessing from above, I thank thee.

Now that you're pouring on with pleassure,

I wish that you bring joy under this rain,

For I find someone who are true and faithful.

Rain Rain, I love you, bring me back the old joy.

Let me relish the days when I was young and happy,

Rain I love you in every way you pour your holiness on me,

and rain I hate you for you remind me of the old days.

Let the rain go on through day and night,

Let me smile or frown under this rain,

Let it rain, Let it rain.

Back to Busy again

Sadly enough my minature holiday has come to an end after a long night of playing xbox 360 and watching movies. I'm back on this kompuyta typing up my term paper for my philippine government and contitution...My topic is on "Is Monarchy an Effectieve form of Government?". It's a wide topic where I'm willingly to work my head off til it's completed this wednesday or thursday. Like they say "Always be ahead of the bounce of the ball, if not you'll fall back"

Anyways I'll talk about my exam.

English was basically all about grammer and such....which gave a BIG MASSIVE headache during the exam! Can you imagine this, two answer for the question! and it's multiple choice!! Head pain! I think i got 70% or less for this one....i mean seriously I have to remember a heck load of stuff i learned in the past!

My other exam which is the governemnt and constitution. It was alrgiht... I think I made some mistakes so it's 80% correct!

So what am I looking forward for this week? PE exam!! *laughs* and taking pictures this friday, since upon request by my family and friends (LW wants to see me korean friend) to see the university I'm at and to see my new found friends too.

AND RAIN! I'm looking forward for a rainly week! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
but I hate it because it reminds me of rainy days in brunei!

I think I use this too much T_T =) =D =S

Anyways, see you soon this week and have a nice day

Another update

Upadate...a short one.

My grandmother's chinese friend is planning to hook me up with her chinese friend's daugther (also first year university/college)....what a way to start the morning with news like this....but if it were to come true O_O ...this is a first for me, you know being hooked up with someone from a secondary party... I think it's my secret I told my parents and grandparents that I'm only interested in Japanese, Koreans and Chinese.....So now, I'm 25% blaming myself for telling them my secret T_T I blame my grandma for telling her friend too. sighs.

Recent predictions lately: 100% accurate in predicting rain lately!

Lesson learned: Never tell secrets to your parents or grandparents....they'll blurt it out load! And tell the whole wide world!

You my reader (friend) mustn't tell the secret, if you do....I'll haunt you in your dreams *evil laughter*

Describe Yourself In One Word

I wrote this when I was waiting patiently in the library to picked up....and I was having an emotional moment...yes I wasn't really studying, I was writing something while I was waiting....and yes it's exam and I'm blogging. *laughs*

If I was to describe myself in one word, what would it be? One word just strucks my mind whenever I ask this question myself, and this emotion or feeling has always been in my heart. Well it's forever actually, ever since I laid foot onto this wonderful cruel world.
That feeling or emotion is loneliness. Yes, loneliness. It's a feeling that haunts me day and night, even though through those happy and exciting moments or times. It haunts me still. This is a reason why I'm very quiet and seemingly silent or I might not respond nor speak towards to people (friends and others alike).
A reason for this would be that I am an only child, I grew up being lonely with no siblings at all, no one to interact with except for my parents, cousins and relatives but I still feel lonely. Yes, sure you may say that I'm the luckiest son or child in the world because I'm only one BUT let me assure you it's not very lucky (sure I get things I want but not everything I can get). I get alot of responsibility and peer pressure (especially now that I have to study and at the same times take care of my only grandparents in this world [my fraternal grandparents are no longer in this world, they're in heaven watching over me]), and guess what? I'm lucky to be even been born in this world! Why? My mother had five miscarigdes, two before I was born and the other three after I was born. Yes I'm lucky to be in this world, living and breathing. I even saw the dead embryo and fetus of my three dead siblings. (may their souls rest in peace)
I do have friends, only a small group of friends. Like 1 to 10 (or 1 to 5) friends only, I'm never a big fan of having an extremely large group of friends which more of a party than a group of good-willing and trustful friends. As well helpful and being there with you when you need them, and they would never ever stab you in the back nor betray you.
Now if you're asking if I'm single? Yes I am single ever since I was born. And if you ask have I ever interacted with or met with opposite sex? Then yes I have! If you ask why am I still single? then my answer is that I've tried! I had crushes which resulted in rejection and nearly broken friendships...and I nearly had a girlfriend but she ended up choosing another guy over me (it was during year 13...painful it is)...I've recovered anyways. What is my opinion towards women? They're human, they have feelings and they are not objects nor sex items which many men would view. Like for example, a guy hitting and trying to flirt with my korean friend....but despite what he trys she never gave her number to him and obviously he just wants to get under her panties. As well, she's having trouble with her english so...I'm helping her with that area as well.
Moving on, what is my view of love? I already answered this but here it goes. The love I believe in is soulmates like the one for you. And love at first sight is either it is really love or just plain old lust at first sight.
So how do I keep my mind off this lonely feeling? Chatting with my friends abroad, collect minature anime models, play xbox 360, work my butt off, read and help people.

This lonely feeling hurts

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Anyways a quick update of my exams:

Tuesday: Psychology - I predict I got 90% of the multiple choice right

Wednesday: Chemistry - I predict I got 80% of the questions right since It's multiple choice
No Filipino exam since I'm taking tutorials with my dear friend...which means we're excempted.

Thursday Day - Zoology - I predict I got 80% right through those multiple choices

Friday None

Saturday: English 2 and Socialogy 3....better be prepared then.

And how lucky are my regular classmates and friends (meaning normal scheduled people), they don't have exams tomorrow and today! T_T

That's the update....See you soon

PS: You can ignore my emo post if you want.

Bussssy

I'm busy these days, homework and so on.
My exams is coming soon, so this blog will not be used for two weeks starting today.

The preliminary exams is after next week.

So see you soon after two weeks

Sniffing

Everyday I sniff to hold the long liquid filled nose

I sniff like as if I'm crying.

When I sleep, the ooze of my nose would gush forth like a waterfall,

Waking up with a puddle of oose sticky wetness.

When eat my packet of korean/japanese instant noodles, my nose would drip.

I sniff and sniff

And sadly I'm sniffing still.

It's not bird flu no

It's a common cough cold,

From weeks of hard work and waking up early,

I blame my air con for giving me this,

Sadly enough it sucks having a cold.

Updates:

None

Just happy to be learning korean via sms and also panic mode since prelim exams are soon...around a week or two or so.

So have a nice day as I will busy myself into revising.

Learning Korean

I'm officially learning korean!

Well thanks to my seon seang nim.

So whuppee!! haha

sick

I feel sick with my cold and cough....My friend said he thinks I got bird flu -_-"

Anyways, I'll update on one thing.

I got tutorials soon so almost everyday I'm in university now.

And finally my library has electricity!!

Time to fix it as soon I get better today.

So see ya and have a nice day

I'll Never Smile Again

I don't know, why but I can't seem to smile...I do laugh but my smile is gone. It seems like sorrow and sadness has taken my heart.

I just feel down for the moment, well for a long while since the morning...I'm sad yes and I've haven't smile a joyous joy.

It's like I've accepted everything that is a lost, as if we've walked different directions in life.

Learning to accept this sorrowness is like accepting everything is gone and left with nothing but loniliness in one's heart.

Yeas, that's me Mr Lonely. Lonely in heart for a very long winding road. So lonely you can might imagine that one day you're all alone by yourself and simply feel that emptiness in your heart.

Sadly, I have always felt this lonilness for a very long long while in my life. Even though I didn't notice this lonilness during my childhood days but nowadays during my teens...I feel that lonilness in my heart everyday.

Anyways....That's what I feel, lonely and sorrowful at the moment.

I'll Never Smile Again.

Joyous Joys

Okay today was tiring because of Zoology, quiz then practical quiz....one way to tire your mind by answering. BUT Philippine Gov and constit. reminds me of history class [like what LJ said about chem), we were very very off topic for the whole 2 hours and a half, then for the 30min we discussed our notes!

I'm beginning to remember IB days when my classes went from extremely hardworking to loosely off topic studying. Like for example, I met a Filipino version of my dear friend Lukman and my korean friend, is having difficulties with english and tagalog reminds me abit of zakky whenever he struggles with mandarin.

So far, I've already listed 10 possible topics for my research paper for my Socialogy 3 subject, now I'm going to ask my english, filipino and psychology about research paperwork.

Also I learned how to say Hello in korean today, in one go correct! now I forgot *laughs*

Research paper reminds me of EE....you know, title page, abstract and so on.

Anyways I'll better get go on, I'll indulge in studying and doing assignments after this break of mine.

My parting message:
The Four Miseries of life:
Birth
Disease
Old Age
Death

300th post

Whuuupppeeee it's 300th post...and I'm taking an hour break before I indulge into studying for my quiz tomorrow afternoon.

Updates?

Well I finally know some people in my PE class who are Hotel Room Management people...well two to three girls and two guys...Preliminary exams are in a couple of weeks!! So fast you know!

English is like grammer school again in primary.

Chemistry has many distractions....like going off topic by discussing national things, and from vingear to market then to buying meat and stuff.

hmmmmm I love uni life so far...even though my stuff are coming in late...like PR kit coming in next week and irregular students' manuals for the subjects will come next week.

So, let's have fun with my 300th post. and view facebook and have fun.

And Happy 300th Post!