Should I?

I am being pressured and asked by my parents that I should transfer back to brunei. Since here in the philippines is abit well....too personal to say but expenses has been high lately...not my spending but other kinds of spending.

I am being asked by my parents and relatives whether or not I'm in a relationship with my kf since I've been helping her and planning to go out with in many days. My answer is no. Both her and I have our studies as our priority number one and we are only friends...what more can you ask from us?

I am being told that I'm an annoying person through texting and talking. Sure I am annoying but aren't you suppose to be glad that someone here is actually taking notice? And actually spending time with you? I can be repetitve over my question and reminders but this is what you call annoying? You should be glad that I'm actually reminding you and helping you.

I am being told that I'm in love. In what way? I am not in love. Falling in love right now would lead to my downfall. Sure people may claim its the happiness moments of their life but what if it's your education is on the line? Will falling in love inspire you in a way it could backfire at you when you break up? Tell me now? Being friends is enough right now rather than going further.

I am being told I think too much and worry as well. I've learned over the course of this week not to worry too much which I learned easily. However thinking is my own way. My way to get away of things no matter what. Thinking is my mental awareness of the world without my proper thinking with logic where would I be now?

I am being told that I help too much, sure I help too much but that's my way of caring for people. I love to help as much as I can especially if it's someone who really needs help. Why? It's my nature, you cannot absolutely blame my nature and way of growing up.

This is the way I am, you cannot change some parts of me that has already been embeded. This is me.